To do list for today:

Take German test
Talk to department about honors class for next semester
Work at Health Food Store till 4
Teach two kids classes
Run Demo practice
Supervise adult open class while attempting to get some reading done for paper
Home, dinner, work on finishing papers
Sleep?

I feel like I'm being really high maintenence right now, even though I know I'm not.  I hate that feeling though.  I try to be (and hopefully succeed) to be as laid back as possible - go with the flow and take things as they come.  I don't ever want to be the person causing the stress, I want to be the one relieving it.  I feel like crap right now and need to just stop talking....  I hate feeling like I'm being high maintenence and wish I could take it all back.  Fuck.   I need to go home and relax, I think school stress is getting to me, I have about a hundred pages worth of papers to write in the next few weeks and at least three of the longer ones are going to be submitted for research prizes at the University, not to mention read by a lot of professors I really respect and value their opinions.  I'm worried about next year and whats going to happen with grad school the year after. 

It all seems so stupid, but its important stuff to me.  *sigh*  Almost done work, I need to go home and chill.  I'm gonna order pizza, turn on a few horror movies and relax.  It's Halloween - I love this season, I think doing some Halloween stuff will help. 

 Halloween Party Update:

K, I had to move the date and now its November 1st which seems like the best day for everyone who wants to come.  So if you can come let me know, either through email, txt or respond here.  

 So it looks like Max may be getting a new playmate!  I put in the adoption papers yesterday and should hear back sometime next week if I'm approved enough to get a home visit.  Then there is a visitation to make sure Max will be okay with the new puppy, and then adoption.  Hopefully it works out!  He is SO cute!  And it'll be nice for Max to have someone to run around with, even if the new puppy will be 1/4 his size!

Getting a lot of work done over the last few weeks.  One paper is out of the way and I'm working on four others.  Thankfully only one real midterm this semester, one "test" and then all the research and papers.  With the two major papers I'm working on for my honors classes and the one paper for Europe Divided I haven't had much of a chance to work on my Thesis, but the meeting went well the other day - I wouldn't really call it a meeting, but he's looking over my four page intro.  If that turned out okay then I'll feel better about getting into the bulk of the paper.

In other news, the Flyers game with my dad was a lot of fun, it was great to see the ceremony with all the old players.  And then rising the Stanley Cup flags one last time and Lauren Hart singing the national anthem.  The game itself was almost funny because of the lack of hard hits!  But it was fun.  I had a beer and was amused because the bulk of the times I've been in the Spectrum I wasn't old enough to drink!  It'll be weird when they actually tear the place down!  

I'm getting really frustrated with a lack of... I don't know - appreciation.  It's happening at work way to often, my boss is such a pain in the ass.  I think he feels like since I'm here less hours now that he can pick on all the little stuff thats not getting done (which actually isn't anything important) instead of recognizing all the work I am getting done in the time I'm there.  And on top of that, I'm still working over 20 hours a week on top of my school schedule, which is a significant amount of time.  *sigh*   

Back to work.... at least i'm going to the movies tonight which should be fun.

I just edited my Halloween post because apparently the karate school is having their halloween party on the 25th and I just got the schedule for October.  I'm now looking at the 24th or the 26th - either that or move it to the weekend before (the 18th i think).  What works better for everyone?

I can't believe its already October!  Okay, so Halloween Party Details ahead!  If you can make it drop me a text/email/reply to this post.

Date: Saturday, October 25th _EDIT - okay apparently the karate school is having their halloween party on the 25th.  Would it be a problem for people if i move this to the 24th (friday) or the 26th (sunday)?  What date works better for everyone? 

Time: 6pm till whenever - I've got plenty of room for people to stay over just let me know so I can plan blankets etc...  Bringing your own pillow would be helpful as we've got a limited supply of those.  

Come in costume!  I know a bunch of us are already planning the DW/Torchwood thing, but I want everyone else to dress up as well!

There will be tons of fun halloween stuff - food and drink (both alcohol and non) - ghost stories, music, etc... and later on in the evening lots of horror movies to keep us occupied!  Any requests let me know, but I can guarantee the cult classics (Freddy, Jason, Michael).

More info a little closer, but let me know if you're thinking about joining us!

This week has not been especially good - still kind of feel like crap and going out last night probably wasn't the best idea.  I had a really good time though, it was fun watching the debate with a really big group of people like that (and hey, drinking for free practically all night worked as well, it soooo pays to know people who know people). 

I'm supposed to go out again tonight because E. is guest bartending at the place we were at last night.  I think I'm going to skip it though.  I hate doing that but I honestly still don't feel all that great, still have school work i need to catch up on and for other reasons I won't go into I think I need to just chill out at home this weekend.

Hopefully after this weekend I'll be back to my normal, chipper (really? did I just use that word? you know what i mean...) self.

Edit:  So I think I may be going out tonight afterall - I've been told that if I "don't wear the silver shirt and the boots" that I will die... and I don't want to die...

 Its 2:30am and I have just kicked ass in terms of accomplishing stuff in the last 5 or 6 hours...

German assignment for Monday is done and emailed
Finished one of the readings for Holger's (I can't call him "Löwendorf, every other professor is by their last name... him, no... its weird) class due Tuesday
Started Ordinary Men for Hitchcock and ordered the book on Vichy France that I need to do a paper on in a few weeks 
Finally finalized my outline for my thesis paper and emailed that along with my final anotated bibliography to professor Neptune

So that leaves two more readings for Holger (plus the Bibliography finished for the final paper), finish Ordinary Men for Hitchcock, finish my thesis introduction for Neptune, and the response paper for the last half of Dracula for Biddick (which I need to finish re-reading because its been awhile).  Not bad, and plenty of time to get most of that knocked out tomorrow (with the exception of starting the Vichy France book which won't get here till Monday)... right now SLEEP!

 So got a chance to work on a staff set form that S. and I are going to do for the demo team - and we're off to a really good start.  I'm going to try and work on it a bit this weekend if it dries out a little bit and I can do it outside.  If not I might just hang out at the school tomorrow night for an hour and play around with some stuff.  The only part I'm having trouble with is going into a really really deep stance on my right knee to duck under her staff as she whips it around.  I keep wanting to go to my left which fucks up my range on the next part of the form.  I know its not physical - my knee is fully recovered, but psychologically I'm still having trouble telling my body that its okay to go fully down on that knee.  Hopefully doing this form will help me kick that habit for good!!  Though I would guess that smacking my knee on my desk right on the incision a few minutes ago isn't helping... OW!